Me. Is. Not. Actor.
Did I Miss Anything?
Where did the happy posts go?
If you realized, my latest blog posts are all…negative. Pessimistic. Still Pessimistic. I Give Up. I Think You Need a Mirror. And all the other shit.
Compare it to my previous previous blog posts. Don’t they seem much happier?
Well my life lately has been all about stress. And more stress. And some compulsive retail therapy and an unplanned bottle of Asahi with a couple of friends. Compounded with even more stress. STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
GPAs + group projects + internships + exchanges + response papers + processing claims + finance controlling + briefings + midterms + quizzes + finals + studying + slides + presentations + preparations + scripts + numbers + financial reporting standards + 40-page readings + injured pet dog + alltheotherstuffidontcaretomention – FUN – THE LITTLE THINGS THAT REALLY MATTER IN LIFE = STRESS. STREEEEESSSSSSSSS. (I wish I can scream that in the Grand Canyon. I really do.)
I need a fricking holiday.
Start thinking of happy stuff Putra. Jakarta. Your dog. Waking up very late. Not reading emails. Melbourne. Not going to any of the five buildings for once. Sleep sleep sleep. No cab fares because you’re late. DECEMBER. CHRISTMAS.
Unfortunately now it’s still October.
God bless my weary soul.
I Give Up.
Don’t you feel kinda bad when you see the Dean’s List at the start of the new academic year and find out that your name is nowhere in sight?
It’s not like I was expecting it, but still.
Hey I was in the organizing committee for Arts Camp okay. And I played the gamelan in Gaya 2009. I’m writing the script for Gaya 2010 AND I’m a finance subcommittee. I’m the incoming Honorary Finance Secretary (yeah that makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside) for ACF. I’m one of the writers for the Blue and Gold also you know, you read the current issue and one of the articles is mine.
But my cumulative GPA is nowhere near to 3.7. I rarely class part. My quizzes are abysmal. My projects aren’t A+. I don’t read preclass readings. My resolutions go down the drain. So yeah I’m not in the Dean’s List.
And no one fucking cares. I get no recognition. Makes you feel like shit.
Can you make like a CCA List or something? Cos, SMU, you made it clear in your marketing campaigns that a holistic education is important. Study + CCAs + Fun.
But apparently you only value the smuggers. WTF.
IKEA Sells Cheap Mirrors. I Think You Need One.
All of you.
It’s not like you’re putting in the same level of commitment. It’s not like ANYONE is. So don’t you dare judge me because you’re not any better.
