unforgivably mundane

goodbye wordpress

putra — Sun, 18 Apr 2010 14:43:09 +0000

and hello tumblr.

The World As We Knew It.

putra — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 03:32:13 +0000

I’m an awkward actor, a rigid dancer, and an indifferent singer.

But I’m in a musical.

42 Days.

putra — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 05:33:19 +0000

I last wrote a post 42 days ago, on the night of my dad’s birthday in Bandung. I wish I can turn back time.

Life has been…hectic. Frantic. Exhausting.
In short, crazily insane.

An observation I made of myself is that I tend to put other people above myself. I’m a people-pleaser; I’d prefer being called altruistic but I don’t think I deserve that. I say yes when I actually mean no, I agree when I actually disagree, I choose to do things I hate even when it means not doing things I actually care about.

And I’m tired of putting myself second.

Life has its share of ups and downs and sometimes all you need to do is just enjoy the ride, but I’ve tried that and it simply doesn’t work. Sometimes nothing seems to work. Sometimes you feel like everyone is against you for whatever reason. Sometimes you feel as if everything you’ve done is a mistake. It’s easier to end it all here and now but I’m trying not to walk away from my problems. I’m still thankful for the little things in life that make it worthwhile (however cheesy it sounds).

So here I am. Doing the best I can to stay afloat and trying not to lose myself in the process.

No one said it’s easy but so far I haven’t drowned.

Suck It Up.

putra — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 16:32:52 +0000

I got myself into this mess and I’m gonna take myself out.

KANKER, SERANGAN JANTUNG, IMPOTENSI DAN GANGGUAN KEHAMILAN DAN JANIN.

putra — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 05:27:34 +0000

This is shallow and not health conscious, but smokers are cool.

I guess they just look sophisticated and independent and gratifyingly indulgent and knowing of what they want in life. Having said that, no, I won’t smoke in the foreseeable future. At least I don’t think I will. Hmm.

I Thought I’m Not But Apparently I Am.

putra — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 08:39:29 +0000

I was pretty sure that I didn’t jump right in for the glamour only, but I guess, glamour did influence my decision in one way or another.
Problem is, there’s a lot more to it than glamour. Like the worsening emailophobia, the constant paranoia of a guerrilla terror group, the absence of relaxing holidays.
But hey I ain’t complaining. I’m coping. I guess. I mean, I signed up for it. There’s no way out, right? What I can do is to make the best out of it, and do the best I can, in the next 525,600 minutes. And hopefully by then everything would be alright.

Worth & Acceptance.

putra — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 12:26:28 +0000

It was simple, it was short. But the effect?

Tremendous.

You may not know it, but I’m immensely grateful and profoundly affected. Thank you so much. All of this was worth it after all. (:

Make Or Break.

putra — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 01:32:55 +0000

i can’t breathe i can’t eat i can’t sleep i can’t play i can’t read i can’t do anything enjoyable.

…………..until after this.

WISH ME LUCK

Because I Haven’t Finished Writing the Article That Was Due Yesterday.

putra — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 15:29:41 +0000

Title says it all.

Here, There, and Everywhere.

putra — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 15:28:27 +0000

I don’t get people who have accounts in Facebook Friendster MySpace Twitter Plurk Tumblr and every other social networking site imaginable.

Get a REAL life.